above everything in the whole entire world i want to be a size 0.

wouldnt it just be amazing ?

what do you guys think the perfect weight is ? it doesn't matter about height just for yourselves the perfect weight?

when i was with my friends the other day that Q came up they all said 8 stone/119lbs i said 6 stone/84lbs and they all looked at me like i had 2 heads ! =S

<3 XxxxxxX

Sometimes, it's very frustrating to log calories, because nothing I eat comes with a neat little label with all of the nutrition facts on it.
The closest I can come is estimating and looking at thedailyplate, although I don't think they're even the same products. Grr.
I was wondering if you guys could tell me how many are in the following (in white) ...

I would really appreciate your help.
If not, oh well, I'll live :p
Stay strong (and by that I do NOT mean "starve on."

Help. Please help.
I havent been able to fast longer than three days for ages. On the third day i always hit a binge and then binge for the next four days. everyday i end up taking abt 90 lax's to 'cleanse me' as if i will start afresh the next day, (i have taken 400 in the last 3 days) then the mental block hits again and i  cant fast.. in the last two weeks i must have spent more than half my student allowance on laxitives. and i cant stop. It seems my metabolism has benefitted from all this cos i loose about four pounds every time i do fast for three days.. But i hate that i always cant push past the third day!! And my digestive system cant be very healthy by now...

What do you do to stop this mental block?? How do i stop with the laxitives?

I'm not sure if i should be worried or happy about this. but i dont even care if i purge after eating anymore. ive lost almost 15 kilo's from it, now. in two months. it makes no sense.
i dont even mind. i feel guilty after iv'e eaten, but then i purge it, and im not even bloated. i do stay away from too much salt and shit, but this is just beyond madness.
im not worried, even though i get serious dizzy-attacks (haha) every day.
i dont see an effect on my teeth, probably too early, but also because i purge it, practically before it has hit my tummy.

anyways, yesterday i weighed myself and saw 51 kilos. wow. thats a first!

well,  that cut soo didnt work.. :$

So my friends and i are doing the Vorld Vision 40 Hour Famine this weekend - 40 hours that you go without something of your choice.  My friends are thinking about going without food, but since I already go days with out food, I wouldnt be making a sacrifice or anything/making a difference.  Does anyone have any ideas of what I could do??  I want to actually help.

ok so last week just could not control the binging, have got to get a grip this week!! am feeling so fat and ugly hate myself for loosing control!!!
so far today
slim fast shake
choc biscuit
total 302 cals
am gonna alternate ephedrine and trimspa this week and see what happens
how is everyone? xx :)

am so low again, i keep binging,feeling so dam ugly!!!
so far today
slim fast shake
cho biscuit
total 302 cals
am thinking thats it for today gonna start alternating trim spa and ephedrine each day, how is every one doing today? xxxxx

 ok so last night i had a bit of a freak out i had restricted all day been fine was really strong i ate the smallest amount of dinner and something in my brain went mad, i couldn't take the thought of the food inside me i felt digusting i had to get it out of me to almost cleanse myself so i purged, i have never purged in my life never and have never had the feeling to ether but last night i had to and i cant work out why.
it was alwful i sat and cryed for about an hour after i couldn't beleive what i had done, its so strange i dont know what triggered it but im so scared now that it might happen again.
and surggestions please xx

ok  so today was... annoying
ive had 220 calories all together.... and purged to get rid of most of it.
and ive just done 200 crunches
but its never enough =(
sorry/...... im just a bit depressed atm
nothings ever good enough.. and im always so fat!

For my last post; CHILL OUT.
God, it is my personal opinion and if you agree or disagree there is NO reason to be nasty about it.
I was hoping to start a discussion, not a bitchfest.
I don't judge anyone on this site as I hope they would not judge me. And you obviously all judged me and assumed that's the type of person I am.

Sorry I'm struggling with this and wish you all could be happy and not struggle either.
Sorry for coming on this site and trying to support people when it all gets shoved back in my face.

what do you think i weigh?
im 5'7
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btw my arms look skinner i think cos of the angle... beware i am huge..

i hate myself so much i cant stand looking like this i hate my fat stoamch and my disgusting thunder thighs and am sick of being tempted by food argh any ideas what to do when tempted!.

im super sorry for posting again but....

how do you make your writing diffrent colours and diffrend sizes ?

thanks lovlies .....<3

i just thought i let you all know you are amazing ! =)
i have recently realised that every time i post here people leave these lovley supportive comments which even if im feeling like crap cheer me up and make me feel worth something ....

i have been here since april 1st and have lost 7lbs !
i know it doesnt seem like that much but i'm proud... still lots lots more to go but i really do appriciate the support you guys give !
i feel like you guys really understand me and when i talk about weight you dont give out to me or roll your eyes like my friends !
thanks so much for your support !


im off school today becuase at the bus stop i had a fainting thing. i don't really know but everything went black and apparently i went pale and my pupils dialated to the max ! so i went home and my mother made me toast and i studpidly ate it, although i don't feel that bad because it made me feel alot better. and im not going to eat for the rest of the day !

hang in there lovlies <3

paracetamol would it take to overdose, like seriously death overdose?
would it work with just cider?
not for me btw, im looking into things like ketamine for a project :)

I just wish there were more people with proper eating disorders here, that actually understand what I'm going through.
Not just people who want to lose weight the stupid way..